Ture story -- the title of this post was supposed to be "how to blog through brain fog" but I happen to be experiencing mild brain fog today and that's how it came out. I frequently mix up the beginning letters of words in my speech, or switch the middle letters in writing (like in "True story" at the beginning of this paragraph). Not only that, I will often lose track of what I'm saying halfway through a thought. It's so frustrating. Or I'll be about to write a word when suddenly that word gets sucked into a void and it no longer exists, no matter how hard I believe in its existence. There are myriad ways in which my brain can make writing difficult.
Sometimes it's not even about the writing itself. I'll have an idea for a story that I really want to write and then, when I go to write it, I find myself an hour later staring at the computer with no words coming out. I never quite know if it's just writer's block, or the idea isn't well-formed in my head yet, or I'm just not in the mood... but usually it flows out like cheese whiz the second my brain fog lifts.
It can feel really frustrating when I have an idea to share with y'all, and the time and motivation to do it, but my brain just won't get me there. Often I'll go weeks at a time when the stars just won't align; I'll be clear but not have time to write, or clear and have time but I have a migraine so I can't look at a computer, or have time and feel well but have brian fog (there it goes a gain!) Occasionally, when I have just moderate fog, I'll write something that I think is great! Then I'll read it over the next day and it's so jumbled it takes me an hour to edit it and figure out what the heck I was saying.
Anyway, I was inspired by Cara's candor (in her podcast In Sickness + In Health, which I wrote about in my post about the documentary Unrest, which you should all go see!!) when she allows herself brain fog time. She doesn't edit out the stumbles in her speech or the sudden memory lapses, but rather lets them stretch on in all their glory. I can't even imagine how difficult and vulnerable it must be to do a podcast about EDS/POTS/MCAS, given how many of our issues manifest when trying to speak, especially with people we don't know. I laughed out loud when I heard her talk acknowledge the brian fog struggles, and realized I needed to let my readers know as well what it's really like to try to put this together. I hope you'll be understanding if I go weeks without posting or if I decide to charge right through it and accept the typos!
Fanks ror theading :-)